been so long since i last blogged thoroughly.
err,
well,

school's good.
haven't throw any tantrums for almost a week already.
hoho.
im proud of myself.
:D

woke up late today.
cabbed to bus stop.
fetch joan and went to school tgt.
reached school.
and we were earlier than girlfs.
nms was okay.
ohya,
did i mention that JOAN highlighted two colours?
oh i did.
hahaha.
so the base was brown and the highlighted one was red!
omg!
super hot please.
it's really nice.
andand JOAN ZHAO LINGLI IS WITH BANGS!
uberuber cute!
hahahaha.
ohyaohya,
krystal is kinda with bangs too!
hahahaha.
left with meiting now.
HOHO!

thennnnnnnnnnnnnn,
went for break after nms.
then had dmt lesson.
uber boring.
:\
after that camwhoreddddddddd with the girls except for kamy.
then headed to put our books in the locker.
the trip to the locker was filled with alot of laughters and our nonsensical acts!
hahahahaha.
super hard to explain.
but it was really hilarious.
hahahaha.

had nms test.
kinda last minute eventhough we knew we were having test in the morning.
still, i didnt revise.
and i obviously failed.
10/30. :(
hell saddening.
but what could i do?
glad that girlfs did quite well.
hardly any passers i could say.
buck up guys! :D

stayed in school cos it was too early to go home.
stayed with joan, krys & meiting.
meiting and i ate.
both of them didnt.
so, they camwhored with my phone!
goodness.
krystal's camwhoring skills are getting better.
HOR KRYS!
lol.

then meiting left first.
awhile later, we left too.
joan and i took train to pasir ris.
walked & talked.
and i seriously can say we are getting closer.
hahaha.
weird right?
but it's nice to know someone still cares and isn't bias at all.
i admit, i use to hate her attitude and all.
but who doesnt have an attitude.
moreover, my attitude is worst then hers.
so who am i to judge someone?
and furthermore, she's changing.
if you people can see she's really changing.
she have been early for the past few weeks.
and im glad she has changed.
:D
haha.
thank you ZHAO LINGLI for being there always.
:D

pictures time.
mixture of todays and yesterdays. :D
enjoy!

hello.

i didnt wanna blog cos i was too lazy & sick.
down with the usuals.
flu, cough, sore throat, headache.
all this are causing me lack of sleep.
:(
but as promised *to karylan & joan*,
i have to blog about joan today.

okay.
i went to school with her.
i edited powerpoint slides with her.
i went toilet with her.
errrr, what else.
she cut her fringe & highlighted *two colours* her hair at THE ONE.
errr, she's very nice this few days.
so,
our bond became very much closer.
hoho.

and of cos zhao lingli,
your honey here loves you.
hahahaha.
HUAT AH!
:D

this post is by someone.

*seriously, no offense to anyone. :D so please dont feel offended.*

what's wrong with you?
why have things changed till like this?
the start and now is totally different.
WHY!
what do you treat me as?
are you using me?
i wanna tell you now!
if you have any problem dont find me!
i dont like to welcome someone who love to use me.
i hate that!
i will leave you alone.
i just want to WASH MY HANDS OFF YOU.
OH GOD.
hope things can change.

happy 9months Karylan & Meiting! :D
lovesloves.

well,
i was forced by Krystal to blog.
(11:43 PM) Krystal ;: why didnt you blog !
(12:00 AM) Krystal ;: BLOG IN UR BLOG
(12:00 AM) Michelle--: FOR WHAT!
(12:04 AM) Krystal ;: BLOG
(12:04 AM) Krystal ;: B-L-O-G

:x

hmmm, yesterday was the release of O level results.
heard that alot of them failed.
:(!
don;t be sad people.
:D!

Regina did well!
weeeets!
proud of my baybehhhhhhhhhhh!
haha. :D

found a long lost sec school buddy.
Germaine Tan Shu Yan!
gosh.
so long since we talked.
like almost a year she went MIA.
hor peiting?
haha.
so like i was saying,
we talked.
she also talked to peiting.
then ting told me she miss 4 of us tgt.
so i told her to organise.
hahahaha!
hell looking forward! :D

school sucked today.
LOL!
i reached bus stop at 10.20
waited for joan awhile.
then bus came at 10.50
reached class at 11.
fyi:lesson starts at 10.30.
teacher dismissed us at 11.30
LOL!
and i can go home already.
cos i only have one lesson on fridays.
LOL!
i was like wth!
im in class for 1/2 an hour only!
LOLOLOLOL!

sooo, went to whitesands foodcourt with Joan & Meiting.
poor krystal is still sick.
:( awww.
andand cheer up babe!

okay lar.
im hell lazy to blog.
LOL.
im having YEP Yunnan interview this monday!
AND IM NERVOUS!
LOL!
im afraid that i might answer rubbish-ly.
LOL!
toodles! :D

we patch things up already.
we will still be like last time,
just that we wont be as close anymore.
so what if i seriously regret fighting back with him.
so what if i seriously want to be as close again.
so what if i did stupid things.
nothing can change.
seriously.
how dumb can i get?
last year was jiekie.
now her.
michelle, you're getting dumber and dumber.
didnt jiekie told you to change?
didnt jiekie told you where your problem is?
why cant you get it into your head.
michelle, if you didnt fucking quarreled or said those harsh words.
none of this would happen.
if you werent straight forward that night.
none of this fucking things would happen.
although no one knows you didnt mean to said those words to her.
but what can you do now?
it's all yoru fucking fault.
go get a life michelle.

first you lost penghui.
than poixin.
than kingsley.
than jiekie.
and now,
you're so at the point of losing everyone.
you're sucha bitch okay.
you should really bang yourself to the wall.
or die now.
cos then, everyone wouldnt have to stand your fucking nonsense anymore.
michelle, go and die bah.
you've caused so much unhappiness to everyone.
now, it's time to pay.

there's no more turning back.
when i said i hate you.
i was tearing already.
it's like as though someone slapped me real hard.
i know it hurt you like hell.
it hurt me too.
but i had to.
if not, knowing myself.
i would quarrel till there isnt any end.
im sorry.
im really sorry.
im sorry to steffi for feeling left out last year.
im sorry to meiting for feeling left out a few weeks ago.
im sorry to you for feeling left out after our quarrel.
and im sorry for making you worried.

if we could be close again.
i would do anything.
anything.

well, everyone must be thinking im the bad person.
but im seriously not.
guess no one will believe me.

no matter how close you are.
the person will definitely say your bad stuffs to everyone around.
is it true?
:'(

get well soon krystal!
loves.

wugui, xie xie ni yi zhi ting wo de xing shi.

i know you will be reading my blog today.
so yeap.
you've guessed correctly.
this not-the-whole post is dedicated to you & your boyf.

Once upon a time,
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for krystal:
THANK YOU FOR YOUR BREAKFAST.
BREAD WITH CANNED HOTDOGS & TUNA.
IT WAS REALLY VERY NICE.
THANK YOU.
ANDAND, THANK YOU FOR YOUR HUGS.
:D

today is a not-too-bad day.
why?
cos audio mixer was fun.
radio commerical is fun.
hoho.
and why is it not too bad.
bcos i had a not-a-quarrel-yet-not-a-fight fight.
well, this guy practically said i treated her girlf like a dog.
yes, dog.
nope, you guys didnt see wrongly.
it was fucking cheebye-ly hurting.
yes, that hurting.
hurt until i rather die on the spot okay!
hahs.
and when i asked the girl,
she just bend down her head and had a reluctant-yet-hesitant no.
that was why i confirmed that they were thinking i was treating her like a dog.
gosh.
so i guess almost most of them thinks that i'm the one bullying her.
but thank God girlfriends didnt think that way.
cos they knew how much i treasure her.
how much i wanna protect her.
how much i fucking cared for her.
*bear with me. there will be more vulgarities*
how i fucking walked home with her cos she was crying.
how i was there for her always.
how i advised her when she met with a problem.
perhaps, i fucking cared too much for her.
i was just being a busybody all along.
HAH.
no matter how straight forward i was ytd.
i still said i love you.
maybe to you, those words are just fake.
alright.
let it be then.
yes, i admit.
i showed attitude to you even if it's not your fault.
but i thought you knew me well?
you knew how i was like?
you didnt showed any unhappiness or what?
isnt it?
or maybe, im just a fucker.
i heard you quarreled with your boyf most of the time bcos of me.
why didnt you tell me?
scared i cannot take it?
or scared you'll be in a hard position?
gosh.
why cant you be straight forward to me?
scared of hurting me?
arent you torturing me now?
you think im happy?
and today.
by not eating when someone ask you to eat is throwing tantrums.
you will say you're not.
but others would feel like you are.
we wont know what are you thinking.
so i just assumed you're throwing tantrums.
i seriously wanted to shout, dont eat than dont eat lar.
but i didnt.
i dont want people to say i treat you like a dog or im bullying you.

the day i forgive your boyf will be the day he say sorry.
the day we talk will be the day you tell me what i wanna know.

i wont mix school work with personal issues.
i`ll still work well with you guys.
but other than that, please dont come near me unless you guys are ready.

and please ask your boyf to get his facts right before saying something unreasonable.
thank you.

do remember,
i have big serious bad attitude problem.
friends leave me bcos of this.
i throw tantrums alot.
i have pms almost everyday.
this is me.
i said it a million times.
if you want me to change,
than i wouldnt be me anymore.
cant accept me for who i am.
just tell me.
or just say you cannot stand it.
dont beat around the bush.

lastly, girlfriends.
thank you for the hugs and the care+concern.
w/o you girls,
i guess i wouldve broken down and just miss lessons all day.
thank you.
i`ll try to cut those attitude and tantrums down.
much loves.

The End.

happy 1 year anni joan. :D

krystal fats, get well soon please.
not used to you getting sick so bad.
:(
hurts me to see you so xing ku.
but you sound hell cute when you struggle to talk.
ahaha.
drink more water and rest well.
:D
lovesloves.
and thank you for the ice cream ytd.
:DDDDD

i talked to kamy just now.
dont know leh.
im abit showing attitude.
zhe me ban?
i still love kamy manymany de.
uh-hur uh-hur.

i need to go shopping.
i haven buy chinese new year clothes.
i haven buy the bag i want from fep.
i haven buy the charles & keith red sandals.
:(
boohoo.
hope daddy gives me money to buy.

*i`ll post the rest of the pictures tomorrow. :)*

alright.
heard from Regina it's confirmed that results will be out this thursday, 24th Jan 2008. 2pm.
hoho.
all the best yea people.
:D:D

i spent 11HOURS & 50MINUTES WITH JOAN ZHAO LINGLI TODAY!
omg.
first time so long okay.
haha.
well, we talked about alotalotalot of things.
horhor.
andandand,
tomorrow is our one year anni.
i love you yarrrr! :D

AND I REALLY WANNA GO YUNNAN WITH GIRLFRIENDS.
PLEASE PRAY HARD FOR MY INTERVIEW.
:(

today wasnt too bad.
had csv.
fyi: csv lesson is about customer service.

than had director royston tan's video production talk.
was super high.
cos i had no idea why.
it's like he's my idol.
haha.

than took a group picture with mates and him.

headed to orchard with the girls except krystal.
went to cineleisure than heeren.
than walked to far east.
ate long john.
meiting went off.
i enjoyed myself with karylan & joan for the first time.
cos this is the first time joan went out with us after school.
but it was bcos she needed to buy things.
so yeap.

than trained to pasir ris tgt.
took bus 3 with joan.

i spent 9hours and 56mins with joan zhao ling li today.
and im happy.
thank you for listening to my story and thank you for today.
:D
this was the first time.
and i seriously hope it wouldnt be the last time.

girl, i wanna tell you this.
though you said it a million times that nothing can ever bring it back.
but im sorry for causing it.
i loved you for being you.
i loved you like an elder sister.
i loved you for everything.
though i hated it when you made a joke on me.
but i still loved you like a bestfriend, like a really close sister.
i was wrong to back out.
i was wrong to argue with you.
i was wrong.
i know i was.
but why wont you just give me another chance?
ive realised my mistakes already.
i just want to save it.
i really want to.
i miss you alot.
really miss you alot.
:'(

i was reading a post just now.
it was about this girl, her girlfriend and her best guyfriend.
3 of them were close friends.
but this guy drifted away cos he attended school less often.
and they hanged out less often bcos of that.
than this girl liked him.
but didnt want to tell him.
one year later, a classmate called this girl and her girlf up and told them the guy who was their bestfriend before, has died of drug overdose.
the girl didnt cry at all.
she went to his wake.
she went to the coffin alone.
she called his name.
and suddenly, tears flowed down her cheeks.
she had no idea why she cried.
soon her girlfriend started hugging her and they both cried.

this girl then realised she has not forgotten him and has never stopped loving him.

were you touched?
cos i was.
and i even thought about what if bestie died suddenly.
and while thinking,

i
cried.
and,
didn't
stop.
even
up
till
now.
(:

omg.
you know what?
i suddenly have the urge to listen to blue ridge saga & singapore rhapsody.
who has it?
i mean who has the songs by rss band?
please please please send it to me.
i want it badly.
i really miss those days.
:(

gosh.
i miss going to practices now.
i miss syf 2005!
those were really memorable.
i miss performing together with them infront of the school.
awwwwws.
i miss talking to syazni!
andand bitching with jolyn!
:(
andandand, always trying to compete with vivien ang.
hahaha.
and somehow, i was jealous of her before.
serious!
cos she's really very hardworking.
i was supposed to coach her cos she transferred from trombone to euphonium.
but i didnt teach her alot of things.
she just *snap* knew it.
cos she learn it by herself somehow.

and i rmb we would go to zhenghua or compassvale for exchange.
:(
i had no idea why i quit band during sec 4.
and i had no idea why i had to bluff mr neo just to pon band.
mr neo, im really sorry.
though i know you might not see this.
but im truly sorry.
and mr er too.
it's like, super childish.
im suppose to do well in this area.
but i disappointed so many people.
seniors, bandmates, mr er and neo, mdm jo-anne matthews.
gosh.
sorry.

if i could rewind back the time.
i would.
and i wouldnt quit during sec 4.
*just don't make me run around the parade square can ler*
i seriously want to go back to band.
and perform on the stage again.
:'(

ive grown and learnt alot from those band experiences.
i was once a sectional leader.
but i didnt make good use of it.
i was arrogant and stuff.
vivien ang, sorry yea.
im glad you were made the S.L during sec 4.
if not up till now, i wouldnt know how bad i was.

im regretting it now.
but it's all too late.
i miss you people.
i miss sectionals.
i miss combines.
i miss running around and have self breaks during sectionals.
seriously, i miss my band mates.
and my euphonium.
:(

bad day for me again.
dont ask me why.
butttttt,
today is a special day!
1601.
hohoho.
:x

engyi was making me so busy just now can.
talking to me, asking me to help him find pictures and help him download stuff but my computer couldnt download whatever he wanted.
sooo, hahahah.
:x

combined class tomorrow.
gosh.
im gonna die of noise pollution.
their class is walao.
hell noisy.
some lar.
im not being bias.
but im serious dudes.
lol.

having radio commercial.
goshgoshgosh.
i did the script!
krystal did it too!
thank you girl.
andand, she helped me with the ntfs thingy.
thank you again.
:D
radio commercial sounds fun.
but it's stressful.
hell yea.

hoho.
pictures time i guess?
:D

today.
started off quite badly in school.
don't want to elaborate on it though.
thinking about lotsa stuffs.
like projects.
groups.
stress.
but hey, on the brighter note.
it ended quite well today.
cossssss, 16jan-look-alike walk pass me.
WE WERE SOO CLOSE.
LOL!
okay.
i must be like some kuku now.

andand,
jesmonddddddd lim ye de is lending me his PSP FOR A WEEEEEK.
a weeeeeeeeek.
HELLLO, a weeeeek! HAHAHAHA
in exchange, im gonna lend him my ds.
hahaha.
cool eh.

did i mention that i ate alot today?
cos i really felt like screaming at the top of my lungs.
or just vent out my anger on anyone.
but i couldnt luh.
it would be too hurting for anyone to handle it.
sooo, i ate 1 1/2 bowl of noodles and 1 plate of chicken rice and 2scoops of ice cream and 2 cups of pepsi.
hurhur.

okay.
i need to wake up hell early tomorrow.
and i really need to sleep now even if i cant sleep.
so yeap.
goodnight people.
:D

took a few pictures before going to school today.
some don't look like me.
lol.

all the best to my dearest babeh Regina Ang & her boyf,
syila, asyraf, syafiq, rasyidin, those band members like vivien ang, melissa chan & celeste tia.
and my dear vivien tey, PoiXin, Lex, Natasha Pang, Jacqueline Ann-Phua, Weiting*Kelly, those girls i know from 5/3, 5/2 & 5/1, Rachelle(krystal's cousin), errrrr did i miss anyone else out?
oh, and erm Sarah.

im nice. :D
though i know many of them don't read my blog.
but who cares.
im nice. :D
hahahahaha.

alright.
im bored.
i dont know what to blog about.
im having a bad headache.
wo hen fan.
:(

okay.
im supposed to blog about this.
JOAN ZHAO LING LI,
WO AI NI.
I LOVE YOU.
AKU CINTA KAU.
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
okay,
we're talking on the phone "happily" now.
LOL! :x
*if she sees this she's gonna kill me man.*
hahahahaha.

haooooo maaaaa?
haha.
please don't be late ler okayyyyyyyy?
:D

okay.
HE is not replying my msges.
abit worried luh.
scared he'll do stupid+foolish things.
yea.
kinda freaking me out abit.
cos he ask me whether we can talk on the phone or not cos he need someone to talk to.
i was like, sorry but im gonna sleep soon.
lol.
that's why im worried.
yea.

and thannnn, ENGYI CUT HE'S HAIR SHORT!
LOL.
he msg-ed me after he's haircut and told me he cut he's hair short.
a few days ago he told me he's gonna TRIM IT.
but i told him the aunty confirm cut short de lor.
SEE LAR.
never listen to me.
*shakeshead*

alright.
im still worried.
but what more can i do right?
soo, im going to bed now.
nighty nights. :D

peiting just called me.
she ask me go find her.
hahahaha.
cos she's super bored there.
cos only left 3 person.
her, herboyf, her boyf's friend.
LOL.
poor thing.
haha.
like first time see 3 person in a big chalet.
horhor?

pooooooooooooor ahting.
HAHAHAHA.
if she sees this tomorrow i think she'll kill me man.
:x
ohoh, and than their friend is sleeping now.
hahahahaha.
so that leaves both of them.
she even wanted to take a cab to my house and than cab back to chalet.
so i called her ahsiao.
hahahaha.
walao.
serious what.
where got people cab here and there de.
hahahahha.

somemore i spent $10(my one day pocket money) on 2icecreams, one large coke and one large twister fries.
HAHA.
so im left with some coins.
haha.
poor me.
ohya, i went to mac with karylan & jesmond.
haha.
i spent so much money cos of them luh!
HAHAHA.
just kidding.
alright.
eyes are closing now.
toodles.
nights everyone.
:D

*im gonna post some new year pictures. :D*