today is a sad day.
:(

me cried abit.
that's not the saddest thing.
the saddest thing is,
only kai & mong know.
:(

the rest was at the living room.
:(
kai, thank you for the shoulders YET AGAIN.
mong, thank you for trying to cheer your-9years-friend up.
hahahaha.

adding on, my mensus finally paid me a visit after 84732894729832987924729months.
LOL!
serious sia.
mood will obviously get worst these few weeks.
so yeap.
do understand some of you.
thank you.

ohya,
i cut my fringe & hair alrdy.
fringe became shorter.
hair become a bit thinner.
heh.
regina, aaronLIM, kai & jesmond say it's nice.
my director didnt say anything.
how sad.
:x
i even buy chocolates to cheer you up today lor.
than you like that.
ass.
-.-

im skype-ing with them now.
hahaha.
& they're like "hello? hello? hello?"
hahahahahaha.
funny sia.
:x
regina say she's playing wedding dash now.
gamers sucks lar.
gamers is friends stealer!
hohohohoho.

alright luh.
byebye! :D

i feel so bored at home today.
hahahaha!

you know,
i really wanna go out with girlfriends tomorrow.
i miss them so much. :(
ive not been meeting them since last week.
ive not seen krystal since last week.
:(
me feel sad about this.
i really wanna go de.
but but but,
i cant.
i have filming tomorrow.

although i know how much the director will let me go if i just asked.
but i cannot do it.
fadilla is not going tomorrow.
& if i dont go tomorrow,
director will confirm do what im supposed to do.
& i`ll feel so damm guilty again.
:(

if only tomorrow is not monday.
how nice will it be.
:(

oh a happier note,
im thinking of cutting my hair.
hahahaha.
after so much persuasion from friends.
gawd!
im finally doing something about it alrdy.
hahahahahaha!


short fringe, bangs, long fringe.
which one? :(



extensions, rebonded, normal.
which one? :(

went out with zhijun, steffi & aaronLim.
wanted to ask meiting along but she's watching movie with her sister.
wanted to ask aaronTeo along but he's at kallang.
wanted to ask reg along but she's giving tuition (i think?).
the girlfs are going for F1.
so yea.

went to angmokio for steamboat.
waaaa!
it was the sexzxzxz!
im gonna bring kamy & krys there soon!
each person only 15$!
&&& free flow of drinks leh!
hahaha.

after that,
we walked around.
around 10+ we went home. :D

they cheered me up from yesterday's thing.
thank you.
BUT, with xiaodi/HPY around. might be better.
SEEE. im not that evil!
:x

SWEET ah!
im smiling ler!
:D :D :D!
thank you yea.
me love you.

see that croc-o-dial!!
it's so cute okay!
it's regina's.
it's mainly for handphone.
waaaa!
sexzxz okay!
me want one too!
cmon video groupies!
buy togetherrrrrr!
:x

i want a new & true bff! :(
im not gonna abandon the old ones. (girlfs)
i just somehow need a new one.
girlfs are too busy, either with projects or boyfs. :(
they got no time for me alrdy.
:( :( :(!

i need someone like
karylan who understands me alot.
like krystal & regina who often cheers me up & is hyper & all.
like steffi & meiting who is like a phone call away & is always willing to listen to me.
like zhijun who would go shopping with me always.
like peiting who is always spending money & talking rubbish.
like xinyi who is always so patient & sweet.

i dont care whether it's a girl, guy, gay, lesbian or whatever shit.
me just need new bff!

karylan, krystal & meiting too busy with plushie & boyf.
zhijun too busy with Os.
regina is gonna be busy with filming & work & school & boyf & tuition & piano. :x
steffi too busy with project & other friends & boyf.
xinyi has boyf, has other friends too.
peiting too busy with WORRRRK & boyf!

:(! me sad.
though i have my HAOPENGYOU alrdy.
but he like forever busy with girl, work, church, project.
so i dare not disturb him sometimes.
BOOHUHU!

if only karylan, krystal, meiting, steffi, reg, zhijun, peiting & xinyi can be put tgt.
how nice will it be?
:(

honestly speaking,
the reason why i want a new bff is bcos
i dont wanna feel left out.
i dont like facing stuffs i hate alone.
i dont like staying at home always.
i dont like being laughed at when no one is around to help me.
i dont like going out alone.
i dont like enjoying good food alone. :(!
i dont like going to the library alone.
i dont like seeing couples around me when im alone.
i dont like going home alone. :(
i dont like staying at the east side :( :( :( :( :(!!!!
i hope someone will help me eat vegetables.
i hope someone will sometimes control me(but dont scold me!).

nope.
not looking for boyf.
but seriously looking for bff.
:(
in need of one really soon.
:(

i hate being michelle koh!
i fucking hate everything that has got to do with being a koh!

i hate you for leaving me&mum.
it was your fault.
ALL YOUR FUCKING FAULT.
why do every little kids have a father who really dote on them.
but i just dont have.
mummy once told me,
i was so cheerful when i was a kid.
what happen now?

the cheerfulness in me was eaten up by the koh family ever since mummy remarried.
nope, it wasnt mummy's fault.
the fault lies with all the men in this world.
they're fucking ruthless.
they wouldnt care how you feel.
they never considered your feelings.
they only care about their fucking reputation.

who wouldve known,
i was fatherless when i was born.
who wouldve know,
i didnt have any memories with MY father.
who wouldve know,
my father was actually a bastard!
who wouldve known,
how ive been living ever since i was born?
who wouldve known,
how this father treated me?

his like a two-faced snake.
nobody knows how much i wanted him out of my life.
i take pills to make me sleep through the night so that i would feel better somehow.
i cut myself to make blood drip out so i would also feel better somehow.
i eat a lot when im unhappy to make me feel better somehow too.
but what's the point?

if grandpa was still alive,
i would still have that bit of fatherly love from him.

during primary school,
parents would always be waiting outside for their kids.
but mines a different case.
my grandpa would wait for me outside.

the koh family would seem like they care for me & so on.
but no, they're just being fake.
everyone's fake.

my mum was nice enough not to bother the toh family.
my mum is the best.
she suffered so much just to raise me up without a man by her side.

when i was alone & young, who protected me from the strangers?
mum was too busy.
grandparents have to look after cousins other than me.
that was why accidents i met when i was in primary&secondary school happened.
it was a painful memory that i wished my father would comfort me somehow.

someone once said i was too pampered.
you may think so bcos all i had was my mum.
you had memories of them.
i only had memories of my mum.

i was never piggybacked by MY own father before.
he never brought me to where fathers would often bring their kids to.
hah.
isn't it obvious?
im just deprived of childhood.
deprived of fatherly love.

fuck the toh family.
fuck the koh family.
fuck all the man who are irresponsible & ruthless.

i hope, the toh & the koh would die & go to hell.
i hope all the man who are irresponsible & ruthless will be burnt alive.
maybe, just maybe, this would ease my pain a bit.

i jitao hate it when you're like this.
hate it to the core.
seriously.

first day of filming was o-kay.
mistakes here & there.
but we still made it till the end.
more to go!
add oil everyone!
we can do it yea.
(but i think i cannot liao. :x)

i need motivation man!
hahahahah.
filming was fun.
lotsa laughter & shit!
haha.
i was nearly burnt alive again.
:x

hahahaha!
oh well.
buck up everyone.
let today's mistake be a lesson learnt.
me love all of you!
except maybe the director.
HAHA.
ooooopsie!
director,
you know im not this kind of person righhhhhhhhhht?
:x!
im so nice to you man.
hahahahahaha!

holyholy!
gotta go now!
toodles. :D

HEYHO!


anyway,
the girlfs (krys,kamy&meiting) pop by my house around 7pm?
they came, ordered pizza!
& boy was it delicious!
hoho.
me want more of it again!

youxiang came too!
he took his projects from meiting.
we slacked in the room for awhile.
meiting & youxiang went off together. :x
kamy was helping krystal do her nails.
around 10pm? we went to whitesands.
bought bubble tea & went home.
:D

now, im on the phone with steffi.
& aaron teo called me.
LOL.
sorry lar cannot call you.
im on the phone with my girlf.
girlf is more important then hpy.
:x
HAHAHAHA.
KIDDING YO!
:D

below are notes to krys, karr, meiting, steffi, jes, aaron.L&T, THOMAS, reg, jun, peiting & reena!
sooo, read yea. :D


note to fattyKRYS, kamy, meiting:
i wanna go
spa,
tanning,
steamboat,
shopping,
camwhoring,
stay-overs,
take-5,
ice-creaming,
cupcakes-ing,
kbox,
baking,
cafe cartel,
ikea,
picnic etcetc with you girls soon! :D

note to girlfriend steffi:
shopping,
camwhoring,
kbox,
pool,
swensen,
cafe cartel,
cavana,
late nights,
movies soon ah! :D

note to jes, my "dear" aaron.L & aaron.T HPY:
sakae sushi soon,
steamboat soon,
late-nights soon,
coffeeshop talks soon,
library till 9pm soon,
skype soon,
cafe cartel soon! :D

note to ahkorTHOMAS:
CHILL AT ESPLANADE SOON! :D

note to reg:
coca soon!
shopping soon!
girlie talks soon!
starbucks soon!
camwhoring soon! :D

note to ahjuan:
shopping soon!
girlie talks soon!
camwhoring soon!
late-nights soon! :D

note to peiting & reena:
SHOPPING,
KBOX,
POOL,
SPA,
FOOD & MORE FOOD SOON PLEASE! :D

okay.
i freaking change the whole thing already.
it's SUPER UGLY OKAY.
i hate designing stuffs.
i can never be as good as krystal?
yea, KRYSTAL.
hahahahaha.
she's like my master wugui.
but she's sleeping now i guess?>
hahaha.
moreover this is my own project.
so i have to depend on myself most of the time.
:D
no worries!

maybe after this project,
i might still be alive.
MIGHT ONLY.
:x
hahahaha.
alrighty.
here it is.
:)




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& tell me asap!
your help is appreciated. :D

& TO THIS PARTICULAR GIRL CALLED ELEENA WONG PEISHI.
PLEASE FUCKING GET A LIFE ELSEWHERE.
WHAT HAS MY FRIEND DO TO YOU?
DONT LIKE HER THAN GO FARAWAY PLEASE.
NO ONE CARES HOW YOU FUCKING THINK OR WHAT OKAY!
& PLEASE, STOP BEING A FREAKING COPYCAT!
YOU WANT TO COPY RIGHT?
GO BUY BRANDED STUFFS LAR.
GOSH.
HOW OLD ARE YOU?
COPYING IS NOT A CRIME.
BUT COPYING & NOT FUCKING ADMITTING TO IT IS JUST TOTAL HUM JI.
NOT HAPPY? COME & FIND ME LAR.
DONT BOTHER ASKING YOUR BOYF TO HELP.
GIRLS STUFFS SHOULD SETTLE OURSELVES.
SO DONT EVEN THINK OF ASKING YOUR BOYF TO HELP OKAY?
YOU WANT HER TO SLAP YOU, HAHAHAHA.
SHE WILL.
SHE DEFINITELY WILL.
YOU STEP ON HER TAIL.
IT'S YOUR OWN FAULT.
DONT BLAME OTHERS BUT YOURSELF PLEASE.
YOU'RE SUCHA DISGRACE TO SINGAPOREANS.
ELEENA WONG,
YOU HAVE SUCH FAT LEGS & FAT LIPS THAT LOOKS LIKE A FAT BANANA OR EVEN WORSE.
WHY WONT YOU JUST ADMIT?
PEITING IS SO MUCH PRETTIER THAN YOU EVEN WHEN SHE'S PLUMP.
DONT BOTHER TRYING TO BRING ME DOWN.
COS IT WONT WORK.
YOU KNOW WHY SO MANY FRIENDS ARE STANDING BY HER?
COS SHE'S FUN-LOVING, HONEST & NOT A COWARD.
YOU?
YOU'RE JUST A PIECE OF SHIT.
OH NO,
A CHEENA PLATYPUS WITH FAT LEGS & FAT BANANA LIPS.
HAHA.
HONESTLY,
I DONT WANNA STOOP SO LOW TO YOUR LEVEL.
BUT IF YOU WANNA CONTINUE PLAYING GAMES,
BRING IT ON.
I`LL PLAY WITH YOU TILL YOU LEARN TO GROW UP & BE MATURED.
:D

both aarons are currently at my house.
one is playing psp,
the other one is editing video.
haha.
they're staying over tonight cos of fyp.

we went to leeza's house to pass her something for kai.
the journey there is super funny!
hahahaha.
they both wore hoodies & pretend that the stuffs im holding on is like top secret stuff.
so they have to protect me.
hahahaha!
super funny lar.
the journey back was also very funny.

they would check the lift or even the area around.
ahahahahaha.

today i saw a few familiar faces.
like, aiting & her boyf
zahiq & syafiq.
hahahaha.

ohwell,
im bored now man.
they're not talking to me at all.
hahahha.

okay lar.
aaron lim wanna use my comp to do encore.
toodles! :D

I wanted you to be there when I fall.
I wanted you to see me through it all.
I wanted you to be the one I loved.
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep.
I wanted you to show me what I need.
I wanted you to know just how down deep.

weeeets!
hello world!
haha.

im super lazy to blog about stuffs man.
LOL.
i woke up hell late.
both aaronS were waiting for me.
went to school with them & without steffi for the first time.
after school,
i went to the cafe cartel @ tampinesmall with meiting & aaronteo today.
kamy, fattypookrys & jes went home.
the food was nice.
the price was reasonable!
look at the pictures to see what we ordered.
& it was for $22.20 only!!
haha.

ohya,
yesterday during lantern festival.
i mentioned i was with girlfs & the guys.
i forgot to add something in.
JESMOND LIM tried to burn me ALIVE!
HAHAHAHA.
serious!
i was lighting a candle,
& he light the lighter & it obviously burn my fingers.
OMGGGG.
painful okay.
LOL.
but it's not like, burn until they're suppose to send me to the hospital lar.
LOL.
it didnt have any burnt marks or whatsoever.
hahahaha.

&&& one more.
JESMOND LIM hit meiting's thigh until ......



poor thing right?!?!?!?!?!?!

lol.
but it wasnt on purpose luh.
cos we were playing a game.
so yea, that's why.
hahahaha.

alrighty!
pictures time. :D
there's quite alot.
& it's all mixed up.
sooo, :D