i wish you could understand how much it hurts. i wish you wouldnt be such a dummy & not do anything. a girl confesses & all you do is haha. what does that even mean? you told her she's special. & then you do that? it doesnt show how special she is you know? you dont wanna quarrel. but i wanna know what is going through your mind! i wanna know! i need to know! if i dont know anything, how am i supposed to understand you. why are you like this? you've always been like this. you never really changed. i pour my heart out every time. but what about you? you dont. you never really did. when you confessed last year april, that was the only time you said what & how you felt. after that?? :( im really tired. really. what do you want me to do? what am i supposed to do? i wanna understand you. i dont wanna quarrel. but how can i not quarrel when you just keep every fucking thing to yourself?

when i said you didnt care & didnt bother. that was when you acted like a man! that is what i want! that is what i expect you silly! i wish you could be like that all the time. i know you care about me. so when i said you didnt, you got angry cos you think its unfair for me to think that way when you actually do care & bother. that was my only way to see you being yourself. we have lesser things to say now. why? just bcos we're nowhere near each other? just bcos our only favourite thing is polka dots & melted ice cream only? i like you. i really really do. but how long can i stay this way? im falling apart. i really am. :'(

23rd March 2011,
met xinyi & headed to town. met carinna at 313 & walked to cine for lunch! cos we were all damn hungry.
had lunch at Javier's. food there was damn awesome! & the portion is so freaking much! cos we took a lot ah. hahahaha.



after that went for kbox!! my fav. :x hahahaha. sang until around 5pm? jiajia has already reached 313. so we walked over to meet her.

went to marche & eat again. LOL. jiajia ate first though. we were still digesting. hahaha. after awhile we cut the bday cake.



camwhored a litttttttle. hahaha.


































catch up with each other. & then took train home! :D
while in the train, xinyi & i realized we havent take pictures tgt yet. so... ahahaha.










i had funnnnnnn though plans were a bittttttttttttttttt messed up. but it's okay. had fun :D & i miss jiajia sooooo much. :)

我好想跟你说你错在那里，可是，真的好难开口哦。不想伤害你，可是又不想再骗你了。好烦哦！应该这么办呢？你都有了新朋友，应该不要旧朋友了吧？算了，不说会对大家好吧？累了，要睡了。晚安。

重看你写给我的信，让我真的觉得很难过。明明说要做一辈子的好朋友。明明说永远都不要吵架了。但是为何会变成这样呢？我们两当然有错，但是因该不能挽回了吧? 我常常说朋友就做到今天，明天再说。可是现在真的朋友就只做到今天了。我看起来根本都不在意，可是，我真的很难过。刚刚看了那些信，我真的好想大哭哦。你有跟我一样难过吗？我希望有吧。我可以肯定的说，没有一个可以像我那么的了解你。朋友这么多年了，真的不是做假的。但是我们还能这么样呢？我只能说，对不起。朋友做不成我也有错。我真的希望，你会好好的照顾自己。不知道几时才能见面。保重哦。再见了。

happy 22nd belated birthday ahkor!
hope you enjoyed yourself as much as we all did! :)
it's always full of fun & laughters whenever you're around.
thank you for bringing so much joy to our group.



8th March
went to holland v for xlb steamboat with karylan, thomas, meiting, krystal, joan & calvin!
krystal left halfway.