in need of venting my frustrations.

like wtf. guys are so fucked up lately. quarreled with one over a genting trip a few weeks ago. quarreled with my boss ytd. quarreled with my supervisor today. like a fuck sia.

this kingsley lam ah. damn ass. i mean cmon. ive changed a lot compared to my past. i used to be a fucking major petty girl in the past. but ive really changed. & though im still as vulgar, but im trynna cut down on it already. you cant see it cos you're not always together with me. i have my anger, my frustrations. of cos if i suddenly just explode, you cant blame me what. ive been very patient with everything. & you just blamed me for that. yeah, for that. just for that! it's just ridiculous. ive always been there for everyone. literally every single one of my friends. you should know me better than most of them! & yet, you cant understand. sigh. huge disappointment. some people just wait for everything to be done for them. i dont. i join in the discussion. but i dont get any credit at the end of the day. instead, i get scoldings, blames etc. so unfair. so major unfair. sigh. :(

& this supervisor of mine. number 2 ass. after all your anger, your scoldings, you tell me it's all jokes?! after blaming me for everything, you say it's just jokes?? gosh man. i really dont know what to say.
you said "

• those were just jokes
• best of friends always reconcile easily
• because they believe that friendship can be measured by how tough you are in handling tough situation"
  
  

seriously? what do you take me as man? im a girl. im human too you know? i have feelings. after everything, you tell me it's just a joke? i really cannot accept it. really cant. sigh. big major sigh. :(